Its exam week and i'm feeling shitty as hell. These past few months have been rather..stressful? Yeah stressful. I'm all stressed out and the funny thing is, i have no idea why im feeling like this. No, that's a lie. I do know why. And i have only myself to blame.
I've lost contact from someone who not only made me look up Astronomy on the net; taught me almost everything there is to know about The Orion Constellation, its stars, nebulas (or is it nebulaes?) and how to look for it in the night sky, but also a friend to share everything with. Well okay not everything. Okay tipu lg, I have shared practically everything with him. He became this friend who would listen to what i say, make observation and then help me see things in a different way. Always cheering me up. Always have nice things to say about me to me. Which is something, believe me, doesn't happen very often.
So, why am I here talking about him and not talking to him? Simple. Like every other men in my life, he's gone. pooofff!! Vanished. Gone with the wind. Its prolly my fault, though. I did something i was not supposed to. I was too casual. I am like the most paranoid person in the world, but he made me believe that everything would be alright. No worries. Like that time when he was playing this sick mindgame and went awol on me. I was freaking out, was out of my mind thinking i did something wrong, was going to text him but kept telling myself "no! Dont do it, Byn!" When he finally showed up, we promise to never again play this sick, SICK, game.
Everything went well after that. He helped me realize what a jerk my ex was, was there to help keep me sane while i was in training and he was also always there to support me. And on a fateful day, our friendship as i know it, was about to bite the dust. A text message to him was left unreplied. Little that i know, that would be the very last text message from me to him. I receive an email on the next day, i remember like it was yesterday. Paranoia kicked in, as i read each line in the mail, tears started to roll down my cheeks. At that moment i knew, things between him and i will never be the same again....
And today is exactly 50 days since his last email sent on August, 13. I have never heard from him since.
