Byn Tertakot

Okay, had a minor muscle injury last thursday and was on MC on friday. Went to see the doctor on friday, explained to her about how my thighs got hurt (yes, saya debab so semasa turun tangga scaffold tu saya amat berhati² sekali dengan menahan kaki supaya tidak terjatuh), then I told her about the numbness on my hands when waking up in the morning. On and off I wud wake up in the morning feeling numb on both hands, I wud just shake it off thinkin maybe the a/c was causing the numbness. But then, I notice when I don't sleep with a/c on, I sometimes do wake up feelin numb. Then on friday morning, again I shoke my hands but this time, it took me about 5-7 mins for my hands to "feel" again. Which scared the hell out of me. The doctor explained maybe I have nerve entrapment at the back of my neck. And advised me to go for a x-ray and blood test to determine what really is the cause of this numbness. I also tried Googling it on the net and most sites suggested the same cause. Then I saw something I don't want to see. Another cause for this so called "morning numbness" is infact an early sign of diabetes.

Tajot! My family, both mom & dad's side, have a long history with diabetes. My late Opah and Atok both was diabetics. So was my late Aunt Sophie. Mom and Dad pun :( I really, REALLY hope I'm not one. I grew up watching how Mom and Dad progressed from metformin popping to insulin shots, order less sugary drinks, drink tea without sugar..nooo I don't want that! (Progressed tu boleh pakai ke sini?? I can't find the right term for it)

Made an appointment yesterday to go see a doctor at KPMC later this evening after work. I hope the result turns out good for me. إن شاء الله.
Sent by Maxis from my BlackBerry® smartphone

Byn berfikir

Was watching Barefoot Contessa with mom late this evening. Ina Garten was making friday night dinner for her hardworking husband, Jeffrey (katanya la). The menu had to be chicken cause Jeffrey loves chicken, so she's going to make Chicken errr apa ek? Chicken Picatta? Or was it Panchetta? No no I think its the Picatta but I'm not sure of the spelling hehe, Buttermilk Mashed Potatoes and Apple-Pear Crisp. She started off with dessert, she made Apple and Pear Crisp which what looks to me a lil like Apple Crumble. As usual, she'll make it look easy-peasy all the time. But what strikes me the most is what she said after she puts the Crisp in the oven. She said "I love it when Jeffrey could smell something baking when he walks in to that door." The way she said it makes me go "Awwwww..how sweet is tht?" she mentioned Jeffrey quite often throughout the show, like her life only revolves around Jeffrey. But come to think about it, that should be the way kan? The perks of being a housewife, you get to do everything for and with your loved ones. Well, maybe Ina is not actually a housewife, but the recording is done in her house, so kira housewife la tu hehehe

I wanna do that. I want to be able to stay at home, do everything for my husband, my family. Taking care of everything for them. Well not everything, but most of it! I wanna cook for my husband, make him his favourite meals, also teach him some of my favourites, understand his likes and dislikes. Like I want him to tell me, "honey, I don't really like apple pie". I want him to tell me he don't like apple pie, I don't want him to eat it just to make me happy. Cause I know for a fact I won't eat sardines just because he likes it :P

Alamak penyakit tua sudah mari? Ahahahahaha

Sent by Maxis from my BlackBerry® smartphone

Problematic Byn

i have a serious problem.
been trying to understand it myself by doin some research on the net about it.
not quite sure how to put it, but its kinda bugging me right now.

problem #1:
when i opened the cutlery drawer to get a spoon,
when i pick up a spoon, i apologize to all the other
cutleries and promise to use them later.

problem #2:
Choosing a lane at a toll house/plaza.
if i'm using the smart tag/touch n go, and there's only one
lane for both i feel safe.
the problem comes when there is more than 1 lane.
smart tag = 2 lanes, me = hard time choosing between the two.
when i finally decide on a lane, i'll apologize again, and promise to use the other lane some other time.
touch n go = 2 lanes for touch n go sahaja, 3 lanes touch n go dan tunai.
im screwed.
tunai = 4 lanes, me = goes to the one on the right side. reason? dahulukan kanan!
and i'll apologize to all the other lanes.

actually, these are not the only things i apologize to. i do it to practically everything!
my clothes, my shoes, plates, glasses, frying pans, clothes hanger, tv station, even songs on my playlist!

can someone pleaseeeeeeee  explain this to me?
penat la :'(