Byn Kesedihan

Assalamualaikum. Hari ni hari sedih utk semua ahli Ariff Clan. A few days ago, Huda whatsapp kat Ariff Clan group, dia bagitau Ain warded kat Hospital Serdang sebab ada bleeding. She stressed "Ain tau, bukan Yam". I learned about Ain's pregnancy masa Raya Qurban hari tu. Itu pun mcm tak dikecohkan. Pelik sikit msg Huda tu sebab as far as I can remember, Ain's baby is due next year. Macam February or March gitu. Pastu Huda cakap "Doakan Ain n baby selamat". So okay la, malam tu I called Mak Ngah to check on Ain but Yam Picked up the phone. I have absolutely no clue what Yam said when she said "Uri dia kat bawah, and dah dilated sebab tu kena warded.Kalau boleh doctor nak baby tu full term, baby pun active, heartbeat pun kuat. Kalau terpaksa, kena deliver baby tu tapi dalam 2-3 jam je doctor bagi utk baby tu survive". I'm not good with pregnancy terms, for example, uri tu ape? Err sebenarnya sampai sekarang tak tau sebab tah, tak tanya plak mom apa maksud uri tu tadi. Lol.

When I woke up this morning, saw another whatsapp msg from the group. Yam delivered the news saying Ain gave birth to a baby girl around 3am. Alhamdulillah. Again, I thought okay this is good news, there is a new baby in the family. I told Mom, pastu sent mom to the station and balik tido. Around 11am Mom called and break the news. Ain had just lost her baby. I was shocked. Tak tahu nak reply apa selain اِنّا لِلّهِ وَاِنّا اِلَيْهِ رَجِعُوْنَ . Was about to cry but held back sebab I know I was the one who will have to tell dad about the sad news. And I know how very emotional Dad is especially when it involves family. Just as I told Dad what had happened, Dad started crying and wanted to call Dol immediately to take him to Mak Ngah's. I told Dad, its okay, I will take him. Then Mom called to confirm she's coming home and asked me to pick her up at the station around 1.15pm. Byn pula kena pegi Shah Alam dulu to send a faulty powerbank to Pipi to exchange with a new one. And so the journey begins.

Balik from Shah Alam, picked Mom up at the station, balik rumah so that Mom can change, load everyone in my car and drove to Mak Ngah's. Sampai sana hujan lebat, Mak Ngah ckp lepas je kebumi, sampai rumah hujan pun turun. Alhamdulillah everything went smoothly. Nik Adrianna kebumi lepas Zohor. What a pretty name, kan? Mak Ngah ckp the baby looked exactly like her brother, Nik Adam. I can imagine, mesti kecoh juga mcm Adam. Fair skin, light brown hair, big round eyes. Tapi ye lah, semuanya kuasa اللّه. DariNya kita datang, kepadaNya juga kita kembali. We didn't get to see Ain, sebab doctor tak nak discharge today katanya nak monitor Ain lagi. We were kinda hoping to bring Ain back, sebab kesian la kan Abg Nik pun cannot stay there and wait with her. With no baby, her husband can't be by her side she might slip into post-natal depression/blues. Risau juga tu. Harap-harap Ain and her family okay. I know its tough, tapi mungkin ada hikmahnya. I really don't know what else to say.

A tahlil was held after isya'. Most of us were there, Mak Teh je lambat sikit sebab jalan jammed. Just in time for doa tahlil. Lepas tahlil, makan nasi arab sama-sama. Around 11 kami balik. It was a rather tiring day for me sebab dari pagi rush sana sini pastu hantar Midem pergi class lagi kat Taylor's. Dengan jem kat depan IOI, pastu from maeps sampai Bangi punya flyover tu. Adoi kat situ stuck for 45 minutes! Sampai lepas flyover tu takde ape pun. Saja je orang pelik²!!

Amanputra -> Shah Alam -> Putrajaya -> Kajang -> Taylor's -> Kajang -> Amanputra

Penattttt. Dah la bila penat ni susah nak tido. Ohhhhh mata, tidurlah pleaseeeee.

Good night Malaysia.
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Byn Bercuti :D

Yippieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee................

Cewah excited terlebih. Cool Byn, cool. As I was packing up my bags for my trip to Bukit Merah Lake Town, it got me thinking. Kenapa Byn kalau nak pergi holiday, the night before leaving baru sebok nak pack my bags? I mean, memang la nak pack the night before tapi masalahnyaaaa Byn pack tengah tengah pagi macam ni! I'm suppose to be in deep sleep by now to help restore my energy for tomorrow. But NOOO, perlu juga tengah² pagi mcm ni baru nak pack. Haihhh. Pastu macam mana nak bangun nanti ni? Zzzzz Byn.

Wanna know where Byn is going for the weekend? Jeng jeng jeng~~~ Danny and I, and two of Danny's officemates are going on a trip to Bukit Merah Lake Town Resort for 3 days and 2 nights! Best tak? Best kannnn hahahaha. Poyo Byn. I have never stayed in Bukit Merah before, so this will be a new experience for me. Danny siap buat booklet lagi tau utk this trip. Ada checklist, boarding pass (lol), maps and itinerary. Rajin sungguh.

Dengan penuh ke-excited-an, maka dengan itu, Byn tidak boleh tido malam ini. And its already 4am! I am suppose to leave the house at 7.15 pula tuuu!!! Byn tido pleaseeeee.

Ohh I can't wait!! Eh lupa, I am in charge of photography and videography masa trip tu nanti. Tak perlu apa sangat its just for convenience, sebab takkan la semua org nak upload pictures on facebook and nak tag sana sini, kan dah memenatkan tu? hahaha. Ish tapi BYN and CAMERA? boleh pakai ke Camerabyn ni?(camerabyn sebab mcm poyo plak cameraman when im not a man lol! zzzzz Byn). Okay okay, yeeee Byn nak tido la ni. Good night Malaysia, I'll see you in a bit ;)

p/s: Sesiapa yg membaca ini, doakan perjalanan kami selamat pergi dan pulang ye, maafkan salah n silap. Ada rezeki jumpa lagi :D oh and selamat weekend!

Le Booklet

Le Me!

Tadaa :D

My Boarding Pass
(Pssttt Danny, My name is Sarah Mohamed Roslan hehehe)

I don't know why, but this pocket reminds me of Bandito Pockets T.T
(Makan saje Byn ni lol!)

Fuiyoo Byn..(part 2)

LOL. Geli gila tak letak my chubby face kat header tu? Zzzz get a life Byn, bukan ada org baca pun blog ni hehe, kalau ada nak baca pun terus annoying nampak muka geli kt header T.T

I'm still on PS, man I just realized how much I have been missing out! Best kot boleh buat font-font comel, boleh buat header, tukar picture filters...(sebenarnya benda lain pon boleh tuka filter, tapi Byn tengah mode jakun lol). Nasib baik la banyak bloggers yang rajin buat tutorials for people like me yg kalau takda instructions, tak reti nak pandai-pandai sendiri.

contohnya macam ini, kalau la takde org buat tutorial about this, selamanya Byn fikir benda ni impossible nak buat ;P

Ehhhhhh dah nak 1 am???? Serious tak perasan! It's time for How I Met Your Mother Season 2 Marathon!

Errr...Pastu tidonya bila Byn? Tak payah kot? Hihihi ;)

Fuiyoo Byn..(part 1)

Despite having an asthma attack this morning, I have successfully made my own header! Excited gila bila jadi hahaha this is the first time im using Photoshop. Camne? Ok tak? hehehe tak sabar nak buat benda lain pulak! yippieeee..Okayyy dah lambat nak pegi pick up mom!

p/s: Oh and btw, byn belajar buat header ni dari Wan Hazel. Check out this tutorial :)

Rebranding Byn?

I've been thinking. Why am I being like this? Why have I become this morbid person? I used to be so lively and full of crap. Now all I do is play Chefville all day and watch How I Met Your Mother all night. I dont want to be Ted Mosby! I want to be more like Barney. Sure he's a jerk, but at least he is having fun on his own terms. But NO, I don't want to be a jerk ;P I just want to be the ME I know I can be.

So a few people got tired of me and left, big deal. I still have real friends who actually really cared about me, kan? It's okay that Jay, a self-proclaim non-judgemental person, mysteriously went "missing" when I sent him a picture of me. As for you-know-who, I just found out I can actually function without him, although it would have been better if he just came clean about not contacting me anymore. I am sure I can understand given the circumstances. I am twenty five, not five. And hey, facebook games are fun! Okay itu pathetic sikit haha but I can live with that. Takpe la kalau I seem pathetic, at least I don't have to pretend I'm happy when I'm not.

Oh crap, who am I kidding? Yes it hurts soooo bad when people turn me down just because I'm fat and ugly. But there is nothing I can do about it. I can't force anyone to like me. Face it, I am never ever gonna lose weight and no amount of make-up can change the way I look. And I think I am okay with it. No, I KNOW I am okay with that. It's okay, I can wait. I've been trained to wait pun, so what gives. I guess what I'm trying to say here is, I think I'll stick to being me. Byn. Cause that is who I am :)

Yep, that's me ;)

Why Byn, why?

Its exam week and i'm feeling shitty as hell. These past few months have been rather..stressful? Yeah stressful. I'm all stressed out and the funny thing is, i have no idea why im feeling like this. No, that's a lie. I do know why. And i have only myself to blame.

I've lost contact from someone who not only made me look up Astronomy on the net; taught me almost everything there is to know about The Orion Constellation, its stars, nebulas (or is it nebulaes?) and how to look for it in the night sky, but also a friend to share everything with. Well okay not everything. Okay tipu lg, I have shared practically everything with him. He became this friend who would listen to what i say, make observation and then help me see things in a different way. Always cheering me up. Always have nice things to say about me to me. Which is something, believe me, doesn't happen very often.

So, why am I here talking about him and not talking to him? Simple. Like every other men in my life, he's gone. pooofff!! Vanished. Gone with the wind. Its prolly my fault, though. I did something i was not supposed to. I was too casual. I am like the most paranoid person in the world, but he made me believe that everything would be alright. No worries. Like that time when he was playing this sick mindgame and went awol on me. I was freaking out, was out of my mind thinking i did something wrong, was going to text him but kept telling myself "no! Dont do it, Byn!" When he finally showed up, we promise to never again play this sick, SICK, game.

Everything went well after that. He helped me realize what a jerk my ex was, was there to help keep me sane while i was in training and he was also always there to support me. And on a fateful day, our friendship as i know it, was about to bite the dust. A text message to him was left unreplied. Little that i know, that would be the very last text message from me to him. I receive an email on the next day, i remember like it was yesterday. Paranoia kicked in, as i read each line in the mail, tears started to roll down my cheeks. At that moment i knew, things between him and i will never be the same again....

And today is exactly 50 days since his last email sent on August, 13. I have never heard from him since.

Byn dibangangkan...

A few days after I broke-off with Le Ex, he sent me a text saying he was actually planning to propose and proceed to merisik. That was in June if I remember correctly. Eh ke July? Tah la tak ingat haha!

Recently he started texting me again, saying how much he misses me and all those crap. Kept asking how my day was, how am I coping with school etc. Sangat annoying okayyy, and ofcourse I'll only reply when I feel like replying but...Why now?

Just out of curiosity, I asked him did he meant all the things he said recently. He said yes, every word. Then I asked about the merisik part. Haiiiiihhhh nak tergelak ade, sedih pun ada. Nak tergelak because I was right, sedih because padan muka aku!

He said "Betul la..tp tu aritu..hehe.." (ada lg ayat sambungan tp geli plak nak type sini). I was right! The merisik part tu sebenarnya bukan betul-betul pun. It was just something he said to make me feel "Alamak melepas la aku". Or prolly to make me go back to him. Kalau dia betul-betul sincere, mesti without hesitation dia akan hantar rombongan kan? 

So I told him, I knew it! I knew it was just a set up to make me come back to him. Oh pastu reply, dia malu Byn ckp mcm tu. Tiba-tiba pulak dia admit, he is starting to love me again now. Cerita karut apa plak ni? You dont fall in love, then fall out of love and then later admit you are falling in love again! Gila tak masuk akal ni wehhhhh.. 

Haihhhh bangangkan Byn? What were u thinking? Ingat he would change for you ke? Forget it!

Byn pergi wedding

I went to Am's wedding last Sunday with a friend of mine. Weehuuu ada daging hitam! I've known Am close to 8 years now. Whoa lama tuuu. The funny thing is, I've only met him ONCE, a few years back at his brother's wedding. Can you believe it? He's almost like a brother to me, always there to listen to all my ramblings about friends, family and love life (love life apa tu Byn?lol). I do the same for him too, sometimes. Tapi selalunya Byn yg in trouble haha! Together with Nasa, we would go conferencing over on yahoo, share everything about us to each other, nasihat each other, kutuk each other...haha teruk! Bila conference semua nak cakap serentak! Nasa as usual, will ask us to help her find lyrics to a certain song she's been listening to. Most of the songs Byn xpenah dengar pun! Then Am and Nasa would talk about Akademiannoying Fantasia which i know nothing about. Tapi selalunya makcik tu perlu logout dulu, ade je dah ngantuk la, assignment la, ape la..adeee je hehe. Havent heard from Nasa for quite a while now, but, Am told me she recently got married (pun tak bagitahu! grrrrrr). Takpe lah, hopefully she's happy with her new family now. And as for Am, dear friend, I hope you and your new family are blessed with happiness and barakah hingga akhir hayat :)

Here are the cards I made for Am and his brother. Oh I forgot to mention, it was a double wedding celebration of Am and his lil brother.

This one is for Am

For Am's bro. Cantik tak? I think this is my prettiest card, dont u think? (poyo Byn)

Order Up!

I am beyond excited! I have just finished making thank you cards for a friend of mine from UTM. 5 cards in 2 days! phew~ Thanks for the order Shakira, I'll see you tomorrow =)

Thank you #1

Thank you #2

All 5 of them. I couldn't upload the other 3. Something wrong with my lappy's bluetooth T.T

Or maybe Byn yg tak reti? lol

Byn Rindu....

.....My cousins! Raya was a blast, walaupun tak semua ada. Mek Ain and Mek Yam beraya di rumah ibu mertua mereka which means Nik Adam yg comel tapi suka menjerit dan Hana Madihah yg mcm anak jepun super kawaii pun takde :( (ha? Byn sedih kids xde? Well yeah i dont really like kids, tapi diorg ok je ngn Auntie Sarah kan kan? Hehe)

As usual after prayers, we would feast on what will be the most heartiest breakfast, one that only comes twice a year, of Lontong accompanied by serunding kelapa, a choice of sambal sotong or bilis, and Momma's yummy kuah lodeh, Ayam Bulat wajib every year and ketupat pulut made by Yadik. Everyone was at the table, including Kak Siti. Daddy makan tak pandang kiri kanan lol! After that we proceed to bersalam hari raya, something I wasn't looking for urghhh especially this year. Kerana? jeng jeng jeng! I never wanted to admit this but, we have a new member in the family. Yep, my brother's wife. Who, like it or not, is in fact a part of our family now. Haven't spoken to my brother from the day he married her. There is nothing really wrong about her, its just that at that time I really-really.....okayyyy we don't need to go there, Byn :) Where was I? Ohh salam raya, where Byn akan banjir extreme sebab terlalu byk dosa especially kt Mom&Dad ngeeee. Salam Dad sangat banjir this time, he said "Doakan Daddy cepat baik ye sweetheart..." waaaaaaa sangat-sangat sedih (okay now i'm crying again). Lepas tu salam Mom, same drama all over again smpai basah baju mom lol. Then there is Dol. Banjir super duper lagiiii sebab tau byk salah. Aihhhhh penat je pakai make-up awal awal haha.

At about 12 we left for Kajang, visited Opah & Atok and then later head to Mak Ngah's. When we arrived, Achu was about to leave (Aminnnnn), makteh's family pun baru sampai. Kecoh macam ramai sangat orang, tapi xramai pon sebenarnya, lol! Makan, took pictures and off we go to Segambut and Selayang. To do what? Obviously eat, eat and eat!!!! Penat pulak nak update apa makan kat sana, cause last year's entry dah state apa makanan wajib at my grammy's house so i dont want to repeat myself again ;)

This year, thanx to my new gadget, I had the privilege of having my pictures taken with all my cousins (yg present on that day la tapi)

Oh and Mak Ngah's family, Badik and Haiqal came over to our place the next day to visit and teman byn main mercun! 

On Saturday pula, head over to BGR for Achu's Open House

The Roslans at Achu's 

The following week, when everyone half-heartedly started work after the festive break, I find myself missing my cousins dearly. I miss them like I miss Midem when she's away alot (olohh mcm selalu xde pulak Dinot ni) . They are in fact my brothers and sisters, I shared my childhood with them. They play a big part in my life, and I really hope we stay as close as we are to each other now till the very end.

Saya rindu kamu semua sangat2!

Make a Card Monday #3 - Sam I am

Happy birthday Samantha :) Sam is my baby sister's good friend and she turned 21 last week. Can't remember the exact birthdate though, but I managed to finish her card in time for her birthday. Thank you Schmitty Mc Sisley for the order. I hope Sam likes it.

Materials used in this project;

.Serendipity 6x6 paperpad
.Kaiser Craft clear stamps - Happy Birthday
.Sizzix Big Shot Machine
.Tim Holtz's Alterations Tattered Florals die
.Foam tapes
.Versa Cube in Poppy Red
.Encore! in Rose
.Versa Magic in Pure Black

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Mahirah & Faiz

Congratulations Mahirah & Faiz!

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Byn mengalami penyakit tua

Dear future husband. Who ever you are. You might think I'm going overboard for asking this but, this is what I've always wanted ever since I was a kid. Like, seriously. I came across a tiffany add when I was flipping one of mom's magazine and saw the prettiest engagement ring paired with a wedding band. I was 12 then, and I promised myself, I would settle for nothing but this two rings. Mesti. Wajib. Everything else I don't think I mind. But I HAVE to have this two rings. Please? And I'm awfully sorry if you think I'm such a burden. I promise to make it up to you ♡ ♥ ♡



P.s: tah sapa tah future husband ni kan? Haha
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Make a Card Monday #2

I actually made this card yesterday for my cousin. Was running late and I can't find my stamps! (Biasa la Byn tu) We was suppose to leave the house at 11am but I was still in the midst of making this card at 11.20! Hehe buruk perangai. Got to the hall around 12.30 kot, nasib baik belum start. Mom wud be very mad at me if it had! ;)

Products used in this project:
.BoBunny 6x6 Serenity paper pad
.Kaiser Craft stamps
.Basic grey - waterlily stamps
.Tim Holtz Ranger Distress Markers in Broken China and Dusty Concorde
.Copic markers
.Versa mark stamp cube in Black

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Byn trying..

Finally finished all the brooches for us bridesmaids. Mah's wedding is just around the corner and I'm afraid I might have to alter the baju! Ahahaha. Why is it whenever I try my very best to eat less, I'll end up eating more? Prolly time to stock up on my supplements then :P

This has been a lazy week for me. Bangun lambat, pergi office lambat, balik from lunch lambat. But leave the office cepat! Oh ohh what is wrong with u Byn? I think its because my training is about to end soon, and I've got tired and lost all interest with my training due to the boring environment at the office. Drama everyday. Who knew men could be such a drama queen? Penat tau tak! Gossip kings lagi tu! Hahaha

Enough about that. I'm currently into cardmaking now :) I came across a cardmaking/scrapbooking blog somewhere around last week and fell in love with it! I'll post the link for that blog later when I'm on the lappy. Kinda hard to link links using the phone. Her tutorials got me addicted to Copic Markers! The minute I saw her tutorial, I told myself "I HAVE to have that!" So I went searching for it on ebay, guess what? The whole set costs about 400usd! I was like..whattttt?? Convert it to myr+shipping..tidak terkata! Tried to look for a supplier in KL and came across another blog saying there's an art store at Gardens that sells 'em and costs like 13myr or something like that. So I beggedddd my sister to take me there, finally on wednesday after dinner we set off to Gardens *yeayyyy*

Sampai sana. Terus merasakan orgasmic yg sgt hebat! I cried as soon as I reach the isle where the markers are. Was trying to focus on looking for the right codes, but couldn't hehe banyak sgt plak tu! Went hysterical for awhile bila dah jumpa the colours that I want. Gila! Browse the whole shop looking for things I MIGHT want (might tu! Haha). Got myself VersaMagic chalk ink pad and butterfly stamps from Keiser Craft. Went home a happy Byn ;)

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Byn's Lazy Evening

I made my famous (yeke?) Daging Dendeng for dindin last nite cause I was feeling rather lazy today. Sebenarnya nak cepat sebab nak tgk masterchef hehe.

So here's the recipe.

What you will need:
Beef (jangan potong dulu)
Dark Soy Sauce
Shallots, garlic n ginger (hiris je boleh, nak blend pon boleh)
Cili blend (byk kalau suka pedas)
Asam keping
Bawang goreng (paling penting + lagi banyak lagi best)

Steps:
1. Rebus daging sampai lembut, keluarkan and hiris nipis. Tanak nipis pon boleh. I usually ask the butcher to slice it when buying hehe (sebab malas)
2. Goreng daging smpai garing. Toskan.
3. Tumis shallots, garlic, ginger and cili blend smpai naik minyak.
4. Masukkan kicap pekat and daging.
5. Add water. Tapi pakai air rebus daging tadi lagiiii sedap.
6. Test to see whether the daging dah soft ke belum, add in the asam keping.
7. Bila asam keping dah kembang, add garam+gula secukup rasa.
8. Lastly, add bawang goreng. Banyak² lagi best as it will help absorb the kuah and making it yummmyyyyyyy.
9. Hidangkan sambil mengecurkan air liur org yg bakal makan nanti!

I hope this helps my cousin, Iti who requested it ƗƗ¡ƗƗ¡ƗƗ¡ "̮ but sorry Iti, Sarah masak tak pakai measurements, ikut sesuka hati nurani ni je hehe.

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Make a Card Monday #1 - TuDaisies

Okay so TuDaisies is not really something that I came up with. I got it from Jim Carrey's Bruce Almighty hehe. Mom was asking me when am I going to start fusing beads again? Cause the fuse beads that I bought last semester was just sitting there on the coffee table collecting dust hehe. So I got an idea, why not make a card and embellish it using fuse/perler beads? Thanx mom for inspiring me to make this card;)

Oh and had a dream last nite about tulips in Holland. Hence the tulip on the card ;)

What do you think?


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Byn bersuka-ria.

So okay, I've been going to Mah's two Sundays in a row now. Was there on the 1st week to u know, just hangout and help with the prep for her big day. Throw in a few ideas here and there, and the next thing I know, I'm at Maycraft getting some supplies for her flower girls. I'm super excited when Mah finally asked for help, been telling her I'm here for her if she needs me but I guess she's got a lot in her mind. I've been trusted to embellish them flower girls dresses and headband. Told her and her mom some of my ideas and they liked it. Yeay! Finished a headband and a choker for her sister. I wasn't sure of the headband at first, but when I finally showed her the finished one and saw the look on her face, I knew its a yes. *Yippie*. Danny was there too. As usual, penyakit terencats from our schooldays paid a visit, and the house was filled with laughter, danny and mah's signature "chey chey" tak sudah. Had a great time catching up with eachother, gossiping (ada ke?), cerita lama saujana and anything that comes to mind at that time.

Really enjoyed Mah and Faiz's story of how they met (Neil and I was there when they was just about to leave Mah's place on their very 1st date hehe)and how they finally decided to get married. I'm so very happy for her. Danny is now seing a dude from her office, alamak can't remember his name plak. Is is raushan? Or Roushan? Cause I remembered Danny told me its something like Hrithik Roshan, but with an a in the middle or something like that. Chey hot! (You would know this expression if u know Danny and Mah haha) Found out Munik is also engaged to be married end of this year. Elynn too is now looking for a ring, not sure for engagement or terus kahwin, but definitely getting there.

Aku? Ahahaha dream on la Byn. Adopted 9gag's famous line, Forever Alone to annoy Danny. but mcm sesuai je with me don't u think? ;)

Dah la Byn, tido je la.


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Byn Tertakot

Okay, had a minor muscle injury last thursday and was on MC on friday. Went to see the doctor on friday, explained to her about how my thighs got hurt (yes, saya debab so semasa turun tangga scaffold tu saya amat berhati² sekali dengan menahan kaki supaya tidak terjatuh), then I told her about the numbness on my hands when waking up in the morning. On and off I wud wake up in the morning feeling numb on both hands, I wud just shake it off thinkin maybe the a/c was causing the numbness. But then, I notice when I don't sleep with a/c on, I sometimes do wake up feelin numb. Then on friday morning, again I shoke my hands but this time, it took me about 5-7 mins for my hands to "feel" again. Which scared the hell out of me. The doctor explained maybe I have nerve entrapment at the back of my neck. And advised me to go for a x-ray and blood test to determine what really is the cause of this numbness. I also tried Googling it on the net and most sites suggested the same cause. Then I saw something I don't want to see. Another cause for this so called "morning numbness" is infact an early sign of diabetes.

Tajot! My family, both mom & dad's side, have a long history with diabetes. My late Opah and Atok both was diabetics. So was my late Aunt Sophie. Mom and Dad pun :( I really, REALLY hope I'm not one. I grew up watching how Mom and Dad progressed from metformin popping to insulin shots, order less sugary drinks, drink tea without sugar..nooo I don't want that! (Progressed tu boleh pakai ke sini?? I can't find the right term for it)

Made an appointment yesterday to go see a doctor at KPMC later this evening after work. I hope the result turns out good for me. إن شاء الله.
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Byn berfikir

Was watching Barefoot Contessa with mom late this evening. Ina Garten was making friday night dinner for her hardworking husband, Jeffrey (katanya la). The menu had to be chicken cause Jeffrey loves chicken, so she's going to make Chicken errr apa ek? Chicken Picatta? Or was it Panchetta? No no I think its the Picatta but I'm not sure of the spelling hehe, Buttermilk Mashed Potatoes and Apple-Pear Crisp. She started off with dessert, she made Apple and Pear Crisp which what looks to me a lil like Apple Crumble. As usual, she'll make it look easy-peasy all the time. But what strikes me the most is what she said after she puts the Crisp in the oven. She said "I love it when Jeffrey could smell something baking when he walks in to that door." The way she said it makes me go "Awwwww..how sweet is tht?" she mentioned Jeffrey quite often throughout the show, like her life only revolves around Jeffrey. But come to think about it, that should be the way kan? The perks of being a housewife, you get to do everything for and with your loved ones. Well, maybe Ina is not actually a housewife, but the recording is done in her house, so kira housewife la tu hehehe

I wanna do that. I want to be able to stay at home, do everything for my husband, my family. Taking care of everything for them. Well not everything, but most of it! I wanna cook for my husband, make him his favourite meals, also teach him some of my favourites, understand his likes and dislikes. Like I want him to tell me, "honey, I don't really like apple pie". I want him to tell me he don't like apple pie, I don't want him to eat it just to make me happy. Cause I know for a fact I won't eat sardines just because he likes it :P

Alamak penyakit tua sudah mari? Ahahahahaha

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Problematic Byn

i have a serious problem.
been trying to understand it myself by doin some research on the net about it.
not quite sure how to put it, but its kinda bugging me right now.

problem #1:
when i opened the cutlery drawer to get a spoon,
when i pick up a spoon, i apologize to all the other
cutleries and promise to use them later.

problem #2:
Choosing a lane at a toll house/plaza.
if i'm using the smart tag/touch n go, and there's only one
lane for both i feel safe.
the problem comes when there is more than 1 lane.
smart tag = 2 lanes, me = hard time choosing between the two.
when i finally decide on a lane, i'll apologize again, and promise to use the other lane some other time.
touch n go = 2 lanes for touch n go sahaja, 3 lanes touch n go dan tunai.
im screwed.
tunai = 4 lanes, me = goes to the one on the right side. reason? dahulukan kanan!
and i'll apologize to all the other lanes.

actually, these are not the only things i apologize to. i do it to practically everything!
my clothes, my shoes, plates, glasses, frying pans, clothes hanger, tv station, even songs on my playlist!

can someone pleaseeeeeeee  explain this to me?
penat la :'(

Happy returns

Hi you.

Happy Birthday.

I wish all the success in the world for you.

May all your wish come true.

Wanted so bad to call you.

And wish you.

But I guess i'm no more than a coward.

So here's to you, on the happiest day of my life.

The day you were born :)

Hurray!

Tonite Yad and I will be celebrating something we've longed for, for sooooo long :) okay, tu tipu. Takda la lama sangat, but we always love it when it happens. I can't wait!! Today was an exceptionally awesome day. Went to study Steel & Timber Design at the cafe with Ammar and manage to finish chapter 5 (the chapter when I was absent hehe). Was listening to Coldplay and Rihanna's Princess of China, and as I was playing it in loop I finished 2 sets of past year questions! Went home at about 4, reached home and slept for quite a bit, wake up, pick mom up and head home for dindin. Oh and tonite, Malaysia vs. Japan for the olympic thingy. Dah kalah if I'm not mistaken, but whatev I'm still gonna support our Harimau Malaya/Muda :)
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Saddening..

Pelik. Pelik sangat² dengan klinik kerajaan. I'm at Klinik Kesihatan & Pergigian Kg Pandan. Daddykins kena ambil darah for testing b4 his next appointment in 2 weeks time. B4 this, ambil darah was easy peasy. Letak form, ambil nombor, tunggu, panggil, balik. All done near the main door. Senang, mudah, cepat.

Sekarang? Tempat ambil darah dalam errr apa nama pulak benda ni. Ala yang mcm office kat site tu. Trailer kot? Hehehe kite panggil trailer la ek? Ok. Xpe la lagi, maybe sebab the officers rasa kurang selesa la kan kt luar. Panas, melekit. Tapi dalam trailer tu? Nak naik trailer ada tangga. Pintu trailer bukan pintu standard (kecik sikit), pastu tempat orang menunggu dia, betul2 depan pintu trailer tu. Terconggok la org menunggu. Kena buka kasut pula tu! Hadoiii la.

I'm confuse, bukankah klinik ini sepatutnya lebih user friendly? Bayangkan makcik-makcik, pakcik-pakcik, nenek-nenek and atuk-atuk yg xberapa kuat dipaksa membuka kasut, memanjat tangga. Memang la tangga takat 2 langkah je, tapi kita kena ingat mereka dah berumur, mata kurang jelas. Kalau tersalah langkah and tersungkur? Xke kesian? Kita yg muda pun bila jatuh tahu sakit, bayangkan diorg? I for one tak mahu jadi witness to that kind of situation.

Kalau ada la yg baca entri ni, mesti diorg akan ckp "ala byn ni, tau komplen je. Byr murah diam² aje lah". Its not a matter of byr murah ke, byr mahal ke. But its a clinic for crying out loud! Tempat ambil darah tu bukan je not accessible for elderly, tapi especially utk org atas wheelchair. Bayangkan, klinik ni ramai orang, pastu bilik² utk cek mata, cek ecg, cek darah (glucose), cek kench semua sangat sempit. Bila sempit, orang kat situ kena la buat system yg teratur. Kerusi xpayah la banyak, ckup utk org yang dah ambil giliran. Banyakkan kerusi kat luar ke, kat tempat tunggu ke. Buat la utk org yg dtg daily tu, 1 tempat. Pakai la mic ke ape ke bila panggil patient. Xpayah la jerit², orang tua ni sensitif bila orang jerit² tinggi² suara. Bukan orang tua je, aku pon nak mengamok hahaha. Faham la sikit, kadang pendengaran pun kurang. Ala takat mic and err apekenamenye, ala yg cucuk mic kasi suara tu la. Bukan mahal sangat pun, kat pudu tu berlambak jual. Ade range harga lagi. Kalau pkai mic kan senang, xperlu la cik misi sume jerit and bazir tenaga.

Ever since daddy on the wheelchair, I learned that facilities utk org atas wheelchair sangat² limited. Kedai-kedai xada ramps, toilets selalu rosak. Paling xtahan ialah org. Orang² ni apsal sangat tidak sensitive? Dah nampak org tengah tolak wheelchair, ketepi la sikit. Kasi laluan sikit. Sikit je weh, xbanyak pon. Kalau naik lif, kasi la mereka jalan dlu. Xboleh ke? Bagi mereka "ala nyusahkan org je. Dah dok wheelchair tu dok kt umah je la xyah nyebok nak kesana kesini". Maybe itu bukan apa yg ada dalam hati mereka, but that is how I feel when dealing with people when I'm with dad. Ada yang baik اَلْحَمْدُلِلّهِ bersyukur sangat kerana masih ada yg suci hatinya utk membantu. Bukan mintak tolong tolak pun. Ketepi sikit je.

Eh back to the story, (dah side track banyak gila dah ni haha), persoalannya sekarang, macam mana daddy nak masuk ke tempat ambil darah tu? Pintu sempit. Daddy xboleh nak langkah tangga. Sebenarnya kalau la kakitangan sanggup turun ke bwh and ambil darah kt bwh, boleh je. Persoalan kedua, ndok ke deme? Haihhh.. Byn bkn ape, diorg ni kadang tau nak membebel je. Orang dah kata xboleh jalan tu, xboleh la! Kalau boleh berjalan, ape kes pulak daddy duduk atas wheelchair! Grrrrr!! Which part of "TAK BOLEH BERJALAN" do they not understand?

Ada hikmah kenapa semua ni terjadi. اَلْحَمْدُلِلّهِ keadaan daddy buat Byn belajar and peka towards the sensitivity orang² yg berwheelchair. Kena sentiasa bersabar. Kalau tak, sampai bila pun xkan perasan benda² mcm ni terjadi. والله أعلمُ بالـصـواب
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Hmm..

☐ Taken
☐ Single
√ No longer giving a damn.


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