Byn Kesedihan

Assalamualaikum. Hari ni hari sedih utk semua ahli Ariff Clan. A few days ago, Huda whatsapp kat Ariff Clan group, dia bagitau Ain warded kat Hospital Serdang sebab ada bleeding. She stressed "Ain tau, bukan Yam". I learned about Ain's pregnancy masa Raya Qurban hari tu. Itu pun mcm tak dikecohkan. Pelik sikit msg Huda tu sebab as far as I can remember, Ain's baby is due next year. Macam February or March gitu. Pastu Huda cakap "Doakan Ain n baby selamat". So okay la, malam tu I called Mak Ngah to check on Ain but Yam Picked up the phone. I have absolutely no clue what Yam said when she said "Uri dia kat bawah, and dah dilated sebab tu kena warded.Kalau boleh doctor nak baby tu full term, baby pun active, heartbeat pun kuat. Kalau terpaksa, kena deliver baby tu tapi dalam 2-3 jam je doctor bagi utk baby tu survive". I'm not good with pregnancy terms, for example, uri tu ape? Err sebenarnya sampai sekarang tak tau sebab tah, tak tanya plak mom apa maksud uri tu tadi. Lol.

When I woke up this morning, saw another whatsapp msg from the group. Yam delivered the news saying Ain gave birth to a baby girl around 3am. Alhamdulillah. Again, I thought okay this is good news, there is a new baby in the family. I told Mom, pastu sent mom to the station and balik tido. Around 11am Mom called and break the news. Ain had just lost her baby. I was shocked. Tak tahu nak reply apa selain اِنّا لِلّهِ وَاِنّا اِلَيْهِ رَجِعُوْنَ . Was about to cry but held back sebab I know I was the one who will have to tell dad about the sad news. And I know how very emotional Dad is especially when it involves family. Just as I told Dad what had happened, Dad started crying and wanted to call Dol immediately to take him to Mak Ngah's. I told Dad, its okay, I will take him. Then Mom called to confirm she's coming home and asked me to pick her up at the station around 1.15pm. Byn pula kena pegi Shah Alam dulu to send a faulty powerbank to Pipi to exchange with a new one. And so the journey begins.

Balik from Shah Alam, picked Mom up at the station, balik rumah so that Mom can change, load everyone in my car and drove to Mak Ngah's. Sampai sana hujan lebat, Mak Ngah ckp lepas je kebumi, sampai rumah hujan pun turun. Alhamdulillah everything went smoothly. Nik Adrianna kebumi lepas Zohor. What a pretty name, kan? Mak Ngah ckp the baby looked exactly like her brother, Nik Adam. I can imagine, mesti kecoh juga mcm Adam. Fair skin, light brown hair, big round eyes. Tapi ye lah, semuanya kuasa اللّه. DariNya kita datang, kepadaNya juga kita kembali. We didn't get to see Ain, sebab doctor tak nak discharge today katanya nak monitor Ain lagi. We were kinda hoping to bring Ain back, sebab kesian la kan Abg Nik pun cannot stay there and wait with her. With no baby, her husband can't be by her side she might slip into post-natal depression/blues. Risau juga tu. Harap-harap Ain and her family okay. I know its tough, tapi mungkin ada hikmahnya. I really don't know what else to say.

A tahlil was held after isya'. Most of us were there, Mak Teh je lambat sikit sebab jalan jammed. Just in time for doa tahlil. Lepas tahlil, makan nasi arab sama-sama. Around 11 kami balik. It was a rather tiring day for me sebab dari pagi rush sana sini pastu hantar Midem pergi class lagi kat Taylor's. Dengan jem kat depan IOI, pastu from maeps sampai Bangi punya flyover tu. Adoi kat situ stuck for 45 minutes! Sampai lepas flyover tu takde ape pun. Saja je orang pelik²!!

Amanputra -> Shah Alam -> Putrajaya -> Kajang -> Taylor's -> Kajang -> Amanputra

Penattttt. Dah la bila penat ni susah nak tido. Ohhhhh mata, tidurlah pleaseeeee.

Good night Malaysia.
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Byn Bercuti :D

Yippieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee................

Cewah excited terlebih. Cool Byn, cool. As I was packing up my bags for my trip to Bukit Merah Lake Town, it got me thinking. Kenapa Byn kalau nak pergi holiday, the night before leaving baru sebok nak pack my bags? I mean, memang la nak pack the night before tapi masalahnyaaaa Byn pack tengah tengah pagi macam ni! I'm suppose to be in deep sleep by now to help restore my energy for tomorrow. But NOOO, perlu juga tengah² pagi mcm ni baru nak pack. Haihhh. Pastu macam mana nak bangun nanti ni? Zzzzz Byn.

Wanna know where Byn is going for the weekend? Jeng jeng jeng~~~ Danny and I, and two of Danny's officemates are going on a trip to Bukit Merah Lake Town Resort for 3 days and 2 nights! Best tak? Best kannnn hahahaha. Poyo Byn. I have never stayed in Bukit Merah before, so this will be a new experience for me. Danny siap buat booklet lagi tau utk this trip. Ada checklist, boarding pass (lol), maps and itinerary. Rajin sungguh.

Dengan penuh ke-excited-an, maka dengan itu, Byn tidak boleh tido malam ini. And its already 4am! I am suppose to leave the house at 7.15 pula tuuu!!! Byn tido pleaseeeee.

Ohh I can't wait!! Eh lupa, I am in charge of photography and videography masa trip tu nanti. Tak perlu apa sangat its just for convenience, sebab takkan la semua org nak upload pictures on facebook and nak tag sana sini, kan dah memenatkan tu? hahaha. Ish tapi BYN and CAMERA? boleh pakai ke Camerabyn ni?(camerabyn sebab mcm poyo plak cameraman when im not a man lol! zzzzz Byn). Okay okay, yeeee Byn nak tido la ni. Good night Malaysia, I'll see you in a bit ;)

p/s: Sesiapa yg membaca ini, doakan perjalanan kami selamat pergi dan pulang ye, maafkan salah n silap. Ada rezeki jumpa lagi :D oh and selamat weekend!

Le Booklet

Le Me!

Tadaa :D

My Boarding Pass
(Pssttt Danny, My name is Sarah Mohamed Roslan hehehe)

I don't know why, but this pocket reminds me of Bandito Pockets T.T
(Makan saje Byn ni lol!)

Fuiyoo Byn..(part 2)

LOL. Geli gila tak letak my chubby face kat header tu? Zzzz get a life Byn, bukan ada org baca pun blog ni hehe, kalau ada nak baca pun terus annoying nampak muka geli kt header T.T

I'm still on PS, man I just realized how much I have been missing out! Best kot boleh buat font-font comel, boleh buat header, tukar picture filters...(sebenarnya benda lain pon boleh tuka filter, tapi Byn tengah mode jakun lol). Nasib baik la banyak bloggers yang rajin buat tutorials for people like me yg kalau takda instructions, tak reti nak pandai-pandai sendiri.

contohnya macam ini, kalau la takde org buat tutorial about this, selamanya Byn fikir benda ni impossible nak buat ;P

Ehhhhhh dah nak 1 am???? Serious tak perasan! It's time for How I Met Your Mother Season 2 Marathon!

Errr...Pastu tidonya bila Byn? Tak payah kot? Hihihi ;)

Fuiyoo Byn..(part 1)

Despite having an asthma attack this morning, I have successfully made my own header! Excited gila bila jadi hahaha this is the first time im using Photoshop. Camne? Ok tak? hehehe tak sabar nak buat benda lain pulak! yippieeee..Okayyy dah lambat nak pegi pick up mom!

p/s: Oh and btw, byn belajar buat header ni dari Wan Hazel. Check out this tutorial :)

Rebranding Byn?

I've been thinking. Why am I being like this? Why have I become this morbid person? I used to be so lively and full of crap. Now all I do is play Chefville all day and watch How I Met Your Mother all night. I dont want to be Ted Mosby! I want to be more like Barney. Sure he's a jerk, but at least he is having fun on his own terms. But NO, I don't want to be a jerk ;P I just want to be the ME I know I can be.

So a few people got tired of me and left, big deal. I still have real friends who actually really cared about me, kan? It's okay that Jay, a self-proclaim non-judgemental person, mysteriously went "missing" when I sent him a picture of me. As for you-know-who, I just found out I can actually function without him, although it would have been better if he just came clean about not contacting me anymore. I am sure I can understand given the circumstances. I am twenty five, not five. And hey, facebook games are fun! Okay itu pathetic sikit haha but I can live with that. Takpe la kalau I seem pathetic, at least I don't have to pretend I'm happy when I'm not.

Oh crap, who am I kidding? Yes it hurts soooo bad when people turn me down just because I'm fat and ugly. But there is nothing I can do about it. I can't force anyone to like me. Face it, I am never ever gonna lose weight and no amount of make-up can change the way I look. And I think I am okay with it. No, I KNOW I am okay with that. It's okay, I can wait. I've been trained to wait pun, so what gives. I guess what I'm trying to say here is, I think I'll stick to being me. Byn. Cause that is who I am :)

Yep, that's me ;)