Problematic Byn

i have a serious problem.
been trying to understand it myself by doin some research on the net about it.
not quite sure how to put it, but its kinda bugging me right now.

problem #1:
when i opened the cutlery drawer to get a spoon,
when i pick up a spoon, i apologize to all the other
cutleries and promise to use them later.

problem #2:
Choosing a lane at a toll house/plaza.
if i'm using the smart tag/touch n go, and there's only one
lane for both i feel safe.
the problem comes when there is more than 1 lane.
smart tag = 2 lanes, me = hard time choosing between the two.
when i finally decide on a lane, i'll apologize again, and promise to use the other lane some other time.
touch n go = 2 lanes for touch n go sahaja, 3 lanes touch n go dan tunai.
im screwed.
tunai = 4 lanes, me = goes to the one on the right side. reason? dahulukan kanan!
and i'll apologize to all the other lanes.

actually, these are not the only things i apologize to. i do it to practically everything!
my clothes, my shoes, plates, glasses, frying pans, clothes hanger, tv station, even songs on my playlist!

can someone pleaseeeeeeee  explain this to me?
penat la :'(