Rebranding Byn?

I've been thinking. Why am I being like this? Why have I become this morbid person? I used to be so lively and full of crap. Now all I do is play Chefville all day and watch How I Met Your Mother all night. I dont want to be Ted Mosby! I want to be more like Barney. Sure he's a jerk, but at least he is having fun on his own terms. But NO, I don't want to be a jerk ;P I just want to be the ME I know I can be.

So a few people got tired of me and left, big deal. I still have real friends who actually really cared about me, kan? It's okay that Jay, a self-proclaim non-judgemental person, mysteriously went "missing" when I sent him a picture of me. As for you-know-who, I just found out I can actually function without him, although it would have been better if he just came clean about not contacting me anymore. I am sure I can understand given the circumstances. I am twenty five, not five. And hey, facebook games are fun! Okay itu pathetic sikit haha but I can live with that. Takpe la kalau I seem pathetic, at least I don't have to pretend I'm happy when I'm not.

Oh crap, who am I kidding? Yes it hurts soooo bad when people turn me down just because I'm fat and ugly. But there is nothing I can do about it. I can't force anyone to like me. Face it, I am never ever gonna lose weight and no amount of make-up can change the way I look. And I think I am okay with it. No, I KNOW I am okay with that. It's okay, I can wait. I've been trained to wait pun, so what gives. I guess what I'm trying to say here is, I think I'll stick to being me. Byn. Cause that is who I am :)

Yep, that's me ;)